So I realized in high school that I have problems with making eye contact with people. I can barely look at people straight in the eyes when I’m having a conversation with them (I look at their mouths,which made me develop a habit of making first impressions of people by looking at their mouths..but that beyond the point here o_o). And so when I walk through hallways (or just walk anywhere in general), I look up only to see where I’m going and quickly look down again.
A few days ago, I was absentmindedly walking to a class and I looked up and awkwardly made eye contact with this random kid I’ve never seen before. I quickly dropped my gaze to the pavement but during the process, I felt my eyes get out of focus and my right eyelid do some kind of double twitch. And might I add that this wasn’t the first time that this has happened. So I’m wondering if he (and other people I’ve ever made an awkward eye contact with) saw my eyes twitch and get cross-eyed when I awkwardly tried to look away from him. Oh dear… I wonder if this happens to anyone else…….hmm..o_________O
I am sitting in the atrium area at Duff trying to finish my math homework last minute and at the table in front of me, this girl is on her laptop watching a video. Buuuut the window for the video she has open only takes up half the computer screen. The other half is her webcam. Now, you might think, “what’s wrong with that? YOU take selca’s ALL the time..” BUUUUUUT! she’s not taking any pictures. She just has it open and is checking herself out. I was so intrigued that I stared watched for a few minutes and I keep seeing her eyes flicker back and forth from the video to the webcam. This has been going on for about 17 minutes now, precisely (actually I don’t really know but it’s been a long time).
After witnessing this, I started to think how self absorbed and narcissistic and selfish I am too, constantly seeking attention and praise and approval. So what if this so-and-so doesn’t like the way I dress/look or the way I act? God’s got my back:D Oh em gee God keeps peeling off a layer of my sin and keeps revealing an uglier one waiting there, legit every day. I guess it’s good that God is constantly humbling and breaking me but it’s jjogum overwhelming:/
All in all, Duff is a great place to learn and no shower caps FTW. :D
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In class: 1+1=2
Exercises: 1+2+1=4
Test: John buys 4 oranges. He eats one and gives another to Ted. Calculate the sun’s mass.
I thought I was the only one who felt this. Oh boy….
(Source: who-are-you-noww, via artsy-serendipity)
Last night, I slept for a solid 8 hours for the first time in about a month and it felt so good:D The only thing I remember from those 8 hours is my dream where I was eating really juicy and plump grapes..the skins were actually bursting o_o. I was sitting right under a grape vine and I was just eating and eating and eating. So I woke up and googled what it meant to dream about grapes, and apparently, grapes symbolize wealth and prosperity and happiness. HA. I guess that prelim didn’t affect me that much. Tehehoho. PTL
The website also said that dreaming about grapes means that my hard work will pay off and I will be rewarded for my labor. This was right after I promised God I’ll do my best in my studies because I realize that sooner or later it will be used for Him. Coincidence? hmmmm O___o
And so, as today is the first day of lent, using this dream as a reminder of God’s reassurance that everything will work out, I have decided to give up my time-wasting habits and work diligently from now on. For who am I to waste the time God gave me?
Maybe this is too much of a stretch and I’m just 갓다부쳐-ing, but hey, as long as I get something out of it, it should be fine, right? :D I guess this is my way of telling God that I will be preparing myself for the future he has in store for me.
40 days of diligence, here i come!
